I had one hell of a night. But most importantly, I had one hell of a year. I had everything packed into 2009. Ups and downs, events affecting the rest of my life, experimenting new stuffs and lifetime memories.

2009 would make a great movie. I've watched myself on international stage, I've watched my dreams shattered, I've watched my hopes crushed, I've watched my future hanging on a thread, I've watched people changed, I've watched myself changed. And surely I got myself welcomed into the real world.

On the bright side, out of all 18 years of my life, this year taught me the most. I've learned why I can't have everything, I've learned to make sacrifices, I've learned to accept setbacks, I've learned to be professional, I've learned to be independent, I've learned to live without money, I've learned how to work my own sweat out for money, I've learned why we should only trust ourselves, I've learned how to differentiate what's fantasy and what's real, what's forever and what's temporary, I've learned why we make mistakes, I've learned how to put myself in people's shoes, I've learned how to understand and I've learned why some things are just not meant to be.

Surely, life is about give and take. I've been giving. Now I wanna start taking. So here are my resolutions:

Get my car license, this time for real.
Pass all modules, retain no more.
Get my operation done, asap.
Get both feet back into football, come back stronger.
Go for loads of overseas trips.
Try new stuffs, live psychedelic.
Make friends.
Stay friends with people I know.
Stop depending on people.
Find happiness within me, not others
Have faith in me, not others.
Work for my own money.
Work hard, play harder.
Make my family proud.

This is that one period of life where time flies by without even realising. I wanna make it worth watching. 17 and 18 made a world of a difference. Lets see how much difference 18 and 19 can make.