I, Fariss Haiqel Boulala came to life on 21st February 1991, only God knows why.
Since then, Bengali, Malay, Chinese, Javanese, and football are in my blood.
I'm 1.82metres tall. I'm not heavy but I consider myself a heavyweight in my own world.
I do anything I want and I'll do anything to get what I want.
It's not that I can't accept defeat. I'm just born to win.
I'm as ambitious as Hitler. Fear me not though. I'm a nice guy, really.
But try me if you insists. I would love that.
I feel that I'm nobody. I've been quite busy. So occupied with so many things especially school and soccer. I spend so much time on my 'commitments' but without the will to really commit. Sometimes, I ask myself. Why do I spend so much time in school but not producing results? Why do I train almost everyday but fail to perform well for the team? And ironically, it seems like I don't care. How can I not care about my commitment, my passion? I drag myself to training and I drag myself to school everyday. I'm sick and tired of what I do best. I know my potential but when will I ever shine? Am I just wasting my time? Or maybe it just takes time?
Everything I do go to waste. Nothing seems to go my way lately. I save up just to see my money go missing. I trust a family member just to get betrayed. I go for trainings just to play half a match. I go to school just to get borderline passes for my modules. I tried my best to spend time with my loved ones just to hear them complaining that I'm neglecting them. What's next? My loved ones leaving me after all this while? Don't you think my life is so predictable? The same things happen over and over again. Or am I just being plain negative?
I am not who I wanted to be. Not yet.
Love knows no limits. True friendship lasts a lifetime.
I feel that I'm nobody. I've been quite busy. So occupied with so many things especially school and soccer. I spend so much time on my 'commitments' but without the will to really commit. Sometimes, I ask myself. Why do I spend so much time in school but not producing results? Why do I train almost everyday but fail to perform well for the team? And ironically, it seems like I don't care. How can I not care about my commitment, my passion? I drag myself to training and I drag myself to school everyday. I'm sick and tired of what I do best. I know my potential but when will I ever shine? Am I just wasting my time? Or maybe it just takes time?
Everything I do go to waste. Nothing seems to go my way lately. I save up just to see my money go missing. I trust a family member just to get betrayed. I go for trainings just to play half a match. I go to school just to get borderline passes for my modules. I tried my best to spend time with my loved ones just to hear them complaining that I'm neglecting them. What's next? My loved ones leaving me after all this while? Don't you think my life is so predictable? The same things happen over and over again. Or am I just being plain negative?
I am not who I wanted to be. Not yet.
Love knows no limits. True friendship lasts a lifetime.
